Haven’t you ever lost someone?

                             Many times? Most of the time? ... THEY just COME and GO </3. When my Mom died my world just stop for a while and my world was already to began. Being a full time SisterMom is really a big deal at the same time being a student, being a officer, being a leader, being a evangelist or a worker of Christ is really hard. But see in the past few years I proved that  I can deal with these things. It's quiet hard to mingle with them but I have no choice but to take the risk even they don't good at me. Being a Mother this was a great fulfilling experience but the most challenging. You need a long long long patience and hard work longer than the Great Wall of China, higher than the Mt. Everest. Most of the time you need to carry heavy loads and burdens that the items of the mother package. No day off, No time for giving up. Sometimes I come to the point that one thing only I can do is to take a DEEP Breath to released my depression and smile.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               

            Success is not measured by what you do compared to what others do, it is measured by what you do with the ability God gave you. Time is precious, waste it wisely.

            Being a MOTHER. This was the most challenging part of my life. Dito kung saan "Pwedeng Magpahinga pero bawal Sumuko." Dito kung saan walang bayad. Walang Pause. Walang Break. Walang Day Off. Bawal Magreklamo. Bawal Umayaw. pero Kailangan mo ng napakadaming Pasensya, Tiyaga at Pag unawa. :)))))))))))))))))

You will never understand unless you are on that situation. Hohoho

I AM ON MY WAY !!!

        

Keep calm and do good.

Keep calm and smile.

Keep calm and relax.

Keep calm and breath.

Keep calm and focus

Keep calm and love GOD. ♥

   I choose to use Taglish language on this writings . I really want to express my feelings sa paraang higit na maiintindihan ako.  Minsan sa buhay natin may mga bagay na hindi natin maintindihan kung bakit nangyayari. Dadating ka sa point na tila isang misteryo ang buhay. Madaming katanungan ngunit mahirap ang sagot. Hayyys.. Yung minsan na nakakalimutan mo na palang huminga at alalahaning may kasama ka.
      Now, what I feel ? I'm feeling HOPELESS, HELPLESS, and STUBBORN na wala ako magawa para makatulong sa problema. One thing na nagagawa ko na lang is TO CRYYYY .. to cry all over again. One time I ask myself "EZRA" hanggang iyak ka nalang ba ?. We only live once on this earth. My mindset in this life is ... eto . Minsan lang tayo mabubuhay at gusto ko may maiwan ako kaht isang bagay lang dito sa earth na hindi ako makakalimutan ng tao.. Like the education it can never take away from you.. ganun din sa paggawa ng mabuti. It can never take away from you. Vice versa ganun din sa paggawa ng masama.  It can never take away from you. Kaya nga andyan yung FREEWILL!! haha You can do whatever you want. But accept the sufferings whatever it takes. Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. Not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering. Today don't beg, don't ask, just thank God in silence for all the blessings in your life.

      Mahirap naman din kasing kumilos na limitado bawat galaw mo. Yung tipong bawat segundo may nakaabang sayo para magkamali ka. Sabe nga Enemies target you on part that you are weak or let say sa alam nyang mahina ka. That Satan's do he covers the truth. Hmmm .. Ang hirap maging Kristyano at the same time mas mahirap magpaka Kristyano. Yung tipong bawal kana magkamali at kelangan lagi kang mabait. Your good testimony na winorkout mo sa buong buhay mo ay masisira lang sa isang pagkakamali that's the sad truth. Kaakibat kasi ng pangalan naten si CHRIST. CHRIST-IAN kung baga .. Without Christ I am Nothing. May nabasa akong book na ang title is Who is the real Christian??.      It makes me think about it to ask that question on myself. Am I a real Christian ???. For me we are all Christians because all of us are save by the blood of Christ ang nakakalungkot lang is ang konti ng tumatanggap sa free salvation (kaligtasan) na pinagkakaloob nya, It's FREE, FREE, FREE kung sa mga bagay na libre nga ambilis naten what if si God pa yung nag aalok saten ng GIFT and that GIFT was so expensive na even money can't buy. Oh? diba san ka pa. Ganyan nya tayo kamahal na nagbigay sya ng way to have a eternal life. Even we are sinners He loves unconditionally.      


PRAY PRAY PRAY until something happened. If you don't care about what people think,you already passed the first step of success. If you are going to love someone or something, then do not be a slow faucet leak to be a hurricane.Love makes you stronger among people, but makes you weak against the person  but still keep on loving and forgiving like what JESUS do. :)))) <3 Live with love and peace <3

beee haaaaapppppyyyyy :)

                                                                I AM DRAINED                                                             

  I am drained emotionally, physically, mentally and mostly spiritually. I don't know what to feel. I don't know what to do. I don't know what's going on. The only thing I know is I'm in the part of my life that I was tested. It's like I'm in the middle of the dark room with nothing. I don't see the way-out and I can't find myself. My mind tired of realizing and appreciating many things. I'm tired of many responsibilities. I'm tired of meeting the expectations of people around me. Hard time of compromising. 

        December 14, 2013 This was the day that I cry almost a day. I want to be free from all guilt, pain, regrets, disappointments, and negative things happened to me. I was fully tested these year I don't know why these things happened .  What I'm preparing for?. And why he's preparing me? For what?. Questions that difficult to answer even genius hard to find the answer. Only I know is I'm on my training ground for me to be better. God makes it happened for a reason. Sufferings bring us pain but for me it's not. It's a blessing to be thankful because God loves me and he prepare me for better future. Everything has it's own limitation and boundaries. And I believe as the time goes by, many things will be on the way it supposed to be. There is always reason o be happy :) . Life is too short to be sad. We will go on the part of life that we are  down, helpless, stubborn, stupid, damn, useless, guilty, broken, painful, unloved but think about it. There is always chance and choice to be happy, to be free from guilt , to enjoy life, to be good, to do nice, to be great, to be helpful, to be brave, to be worthy and  to be loved. You don't need to impress people unless God be the center of our life and pleased in everything you do. Like I said LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE SAD. At the end of the day God always do a move to make you feel better and make you feel that you are special. Life's has UP'S and DOWN. We just learn how to work with it and learn to adjust. I believe that everything happened for a purpose. No one is born to be nothing in this world. 

Appreciate all little things and you will see the big surprise on it. Bring out the very best that you can be for the glory of the Lord :)             

                                                      

SMILE :)

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Challenges are given not to test you... It's to make you see things in a better way!

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MY CREATION. WRITING is Totally ♥ ♥ ♥

                         ONE HEAVY MEAL :)                

 

Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

When in doubt, just take the next small step.You don’t have to win every argument Agree to disagree.

Cry with someone.It’s more healing than crying alone.

Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.

Take a deep breath.It calms the mind.

Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer

.Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to meet you.

Always choose life.Forgive everyone for everything.

What other people think of you is none of your business.

Time heals almost everything.

Give time time.However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 

Don’t take yourself so seriously.

No one else does.Believe in miracles.

God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.Get outside every day.

Miracles are waiting everywhere.

If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back. 

Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.The best is yet to come.

Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL, GET UP, DRESS UP, AND SHOW UP.

JUDGE ME IF YOU'RE PERFECT :)

I thought it was a BAD DAY .. But It's a GOOD DAY :)

                       Thanks God It's Friday !!!                 

  Eating at Dampa Ilonggo's Grill at GraceLand Plaza , Lamuan Marikina City. Yeah!~ I'm a Marikena.
I'm Studying at Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Marikina. What a System they have :'(
Hayyy! Long day ahead everyday Enrollment staff.